2020 was a great year for me. I got lucky. I travelled, spent time in nature, and built a fun business with Kaapi.
Whatever time I spent on Kaapi was giving good results. It moved from a little side project to a software business with strong fundamentals. We launched closed beta in June, opened for public in September, and hit $1000 MRR ramen profitability few months ago. I couldn't have asked for more.
But. Now that I have decided to double down on Kaapi; nothing is good enough. I am stressed about customer churn. I haven't been able to sleep for my usual 9 hours in the past 2 months.
We are at $1250 MRR now and I am somehow unhappy because it's lesser than $5000! That same growth which was making me happy now frustrates me. Has something changed in my life? Not at all. My health and relationships are the same.
So why the unhappiness? I dunno, but maybe I have succumbed to FOMO? These words are a reminder to myself to course correct. To better align my expectations with reality. As long as my basic needs are being met, I need to be happy with what I have. Not what I should have.
Maybe the buddhists had it right all this time..